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[Rin has not taken her first death well. When she first got to Mayfield, someone told her that she should kill herself, to accustom herself to pain. She had ignored this advice - after all, she got her robot body back! There was no reason to feel true pain, only the amount of pain necessary to deter from danger. A human's pain was unimaginable to her. But the little taste she got was enough to shake her up.

And then, every time she picked up the phone, she heard some person or other, preaching about how anyone who participated was so bad, and so horrible. For some masochistic reason, she listened to these calls. And Rin had every intent to be one of those persons, if she hadn't died. If she hadn't died, would she be regarded as a terrible person? That pisses her off. She feels like crap. She can't take it any more, and she's ready to throw a tantrum. So she does.]

[phone]

Is everyone done nagging yet? ♪ I'm getting really damn sick of it. You know what, I didn't kill anyone, and apparently you can see that for yourself somewhere so that proves it. But even if I did, you can take your judging attitudes and shove them up your asses for all I care. I bet most of you have even done the exact same thing in the past. Some way or some how, you fell for it. That's why you're so sensitive about it now! But if you act high and mighty about it, you're just being an ass. A huge ass.

They promised me I'd be together with my twin. It's not wrong for me to want to be with my other half. You got that?

....And whatever your wishes were, I know this is one that they could have actually granted! And they probably would have been more than happy to! More citizens, right? Or maybe they really did want to get rid of people, and they could have sent me home after I played their game. That would have been great! I deserve the chance to get out! But the most important thing is just being with Len! And now it's your fault that I don't get to. Especially the guy who killed me. ♪ GOOD JOB. ♪

Hate everything.

[She starts to sob, but slams down the phone before that embarrassing noise can finish.

But ... She doesn't want Ryuuga to see her cry either. So after that, she storms out of the house and gets in her newly-regained yellow road roller to drive off into the distance.]

[Action 1]

[Rin is driving aimlessly in the road roller. She isn't swerving around with road rage or anything, but neither will she stop it if someone walks in front of her. Maybe crushing someone like a bug will relieve some stress. It's one of those days.]

[Action 2]

[Rin's finally stopped at the top of Makeout Point, and having climbed onto the roof of the road roller, looks down on the town. When she thinks she's alone, she gets the urge to sing a song that matches the mood of this entire mess.]

♫♪♫It's so painful, it's so sad, it's so frustrating, I want to stop it
But even that isn't allowed, I just end up losing everything
It's so painful, I hate it so much, it's so meaningless, I want to erase it
I just want to throw everything away
I just want to jump out and scream at the top of my lungs!

Without knowing anything, you jump out into the night city
Without saying anything, I just watch you
Lining up cheap words, where is the goal?
There are no rules there and you easily crumble apart

I say that I'm going to make everything in this world right
I deceived a stray cat by saying I can make everything right
I make a promise I can't even keep and drown myself in self-satisfaction
Everyone knows, they understand
That's why even to this day

I'm exposed, I'm broken
I'm rusted, I'm crumbled
Even the fake rumors that are going around, eventually became the truth
Even if it's a lie, I don't care
We are always right
I will take your sinful corruption and crush it!

Is there any meaning to this song? There's no meaning to this song.
Is there any sin to this song? There's no sin to this song.
Is there any meaning to this song? There's no meaning to this song.
Is there any sin to this song? The sin to this song is....

Then I realize, doing this won't make anything
What value do you have for living?
The cat was thrown in the water
You dance and get thrown around by meaningless moods while losing everything
What is "good" and what is "evil?" I don't know anymore
Come, let's go insane ♫♪♫

[Rin seems to go quiet and listen for a few phrases. This is a part of the song that Len is supposed to sing. It feels even colder without him.]

♫♪♫ There's no way I can forgive this unstoppable feeling
This pain, this hate
I will pierce it and shoot your heart
It's so painful, it's so sad, it's so meaningless, I want to erase it
But even that wasn't allowed. Only giving up will save me.
But it's okay, I don't care
I will forgive it, I will approve of it
Even the smiles, even the jealousy
I could almost insanely fall in love with it
"Good" is fine, "Evil" is fine
Let's *, let's fall asleep
No more, I'm tired
Will we be saved?♫♪♫

[...After she's done, she shifts into a sitting position on the roller after she's done, letting her legs dangle and watching the sky instead of the town. There's a lot to think about.]

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From:

gonnamarrydaddy.livejournal.com

...Hey, Rin. You okay?

From:

roadroller

[the call is answered a while later after she's blown off some steam. Her voice is considerably softer.]

Hey, Yuna.

Um, sorry. I was just throwing a fit. I'll be fine. ♪

From:

gonnamarrydaddy.livejournal.com

Do you want to hang out awhile? School's out, so we can stay up as late as we want. I don't mind walking around town for a while if you still want to talk.